“Just imagine that I am cutting off the sick and old parts”, Antonio said.

Getting a haircut is like celebrating a new start, a new fresh look. No important customer to go to, I am not going to a party this weekend and yet I felt like having a new coup. The best way to get better is to act better. Get dressed, get fresh and shaved and go outside. Where some days I really could not care less about how I looked, other moments it is giving me a mental boost to dress up.

I was not able to walk to the hairdresser for the last two weeks. I could not even walk to the kitchen to get my own cup of tea. But after the blood-transfusion yesterday I got a little bit more energy. And the rest? The rest of the energy was coming from my mind. I just needed to get out. I wanted to prove to myself that I could walk into town again. The fact that I quit my immune suppressing medicines yesterday helped the whole feeling. Reducing medication puts more responsibility on myself, I got to prove that I can do without. I got to get my muscles back to work. It’s amazing how much muscle volume one can loose in only two weeks! It’s like frequent flyer miles: “Use it or loose it”. Also my digestion system needs to work a little bit more elegantly.

So this morning I had my tea at the hair-saloon, talked about yoga and meditation and about how people nowadays don’t take time for themselves. I walked back through a tough February windstorm and got back home to receive the two biggest compliments a man can get. First Jennifer was all excited about my hair, mainly because now the white comes out better (I lost my dark curly coupe!). Well, she likes white hair, also her own grey spots, but without the medicine it’s not going so fast for her.

And then Katy came to me and gave me this huge hug. She kept on staring at my head, while she grabbed a book to read together. Before we sat down she said: “Papa, jij bent weer beter, he?” (Daddy, you’re better again, aren’t you?). I said “Yes, sweety, almost.”

Now I knew why I needed that haircut.

Joost

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